I have said time and time again that I would like some time away. I really felt like I needed a break.
He has had a couple of ‘lad trips’ and I wanted the same.
So, I booked a trip away and waited with aniticipation.
I am writing this post from the plane as I make my way to our destination. I should be excited and happy to have a break away.
Instead I feel ‘break’ guilt.
I already miss my two monkeys and the hubby. I only left them an hour ago.
It makes me wonder, why is that?
I have worked hard this year and everyone has encouraged me to go and enjoy the break.
However, I still feel terrible for leaving them.
I am going to admit, I am not very good at leaving the kids. I always feel like this. Every. Time.
I like to have them nearby and I hate the thought that they might fall or be sad and I wont be there to comfort them.
Two days is definitely my limit when it comes to being away.
As the morning rolled on, I had a strange mix of guilt and excitement in the pit of my stomach.
It is so good to have a break, so I really wish I was not so hard on myself. I wish I was able to relax before I leave.
As I was dropped off at the airport, it was heartbreaking to walk away.
Bob L was holding his hand up at the window and I could see his bottom lip going. He had asked me repeatedly throughout the day if he could come with me. It didn’t help that he had assumed I was going to visit Grandma. In his mind that is where we go when we get on a plane.
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But, going away child-free has its major benefits. Here are a list of things that I took for granted before having children which now feel like a treat.
- Packing: Oh what a luxury it is to pack for one. Just pick a few things and you are good to go. Not quite sure how I still managed to forget some essential items!
- One Bag: It is very nice to arrive at the airport and just go through security with a small suitcase. Very nice again to not have to wait at the other end for your suitcase.
- Plane peace: We are very lucky to have a couple of seasoned travellers with our two. This is partly due to living in mainland Europe, so we go back to the UK to visit frequently. Despite the fact they are good on a plane, it is still nice to just sit down, write a few words on a laptop and enjoy an onboard coffee.
- Evening out: It is lovely to arrive at the destination, have a shower and head out for food and drink.
Now that I am here the guilt has faded and I am having a lovely time, on the agenda today is a sneaky shopping trip (don’t tell hubby!).
In the mean time, back home, Daddy Day Care is in charge! They are coping considerably well, in fact bedtime seemed to be a breeze last night and I am feeling rather jealous – that never happens when I am there!!!