HELLP we are going home…

It felt like a long time since I was admitted into the hospital.  Nearly two weeks later, we were told the fabulous news that we were getting home.

It had been a huge rollercoaster of emotions.  From not knowing what was wrong with me, to finding out I had HELLP syndrome.

However, by far the hardest was seeing my littlest baby sleeping in the Billiruben bed.

The all-clear

Thankfully, with a lot of careful treatment, we were both given the all-clear on the Tuesday evening to go home the following day.

My husband arrived in the room with the two car seats.

I felt a mix of excitement and fear as I realised that soon we would be leaving the hospital.  Being the only ones in charge of these two tiny bundles.  I had not appreciated the sense of security of having 24-hour access to a midwife.

We waited anxiously to receive the discharge forms.

We waited for hours.

Hubby was climbing the walls as he was desperate to get us all home.  I am sure he had been doing the new Dad equivalent of nesting, while we were in the hospital.

He sent me photos of what he had been doing in the house when he had any spare time: everything cleaned and set up awaiting our arrival.

Just after lunchtime we were given the green light.  We packed everything up and carefully placed our precious boys into their car seats.

I will never forget the feeling when we left the hospital.  I was on top of the world to be allowed home.  Only a week before, I wasn’t sure if I was going to live to see the next day.

Going Home

Two little babies in their car seats. Me holding both boys, sitting on my sofa, the day we got home\

As we walked to the lift, I couldn’t stop shaking.

The emotion was overwhelming.

I felt like someone was going to stop us and say: “Hey, you can’t take these kids home”.

But, no one did.  The staff just wished us well.

I remember being so scared at how small they looked in their car seats.

Two little dots; fragile, dependant and so incredibly cute.

When we drove home, it was probably the slowest and most careful my hubby has ever driven.

We entered our home, sat the boys in the middle of the living room, then wondered: what now? What happens next? What do we do?

Of course the answer was – a very British – lets put the kettle on…

My HELLP journey was not over after leaving the hospital.  It took a few years to finally feel back to myself.  I was constantly monitored after I was discharged.  The blood tests, blood pressure tests and check ups were continuous.  In fact, my last blood tests were done when the boys were two and a half years old.  I have been very lucky to manage to escape HELLP syndrome relatively unharmed.  No long term affects on my liver or kidneys.  I only have slightly elevated blood pressure, something that has never returned to normal after the birth of the boys.
I was, of course, also lucky to walk away from HELLP Syndrome with two healthy and happy little boys.  
Every day, I thank my lucky stars.

Next week, concludes my journey through HELLP syndrome, where I will share the insights from my medical notes.

Want to read more about my story, find previous posts here.

Follow my journey through HELLP Syndrome, Preeclampsia and recovery. On the blog, I take you through my story. This chapter sees us return home after a 10 day stay at hospital.
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16 Comments

  1. 5th December 2016 / 12:43 am

    I am so happy that you and the twins are doing good and finely home. I know I was scared years ago when I arrived home with my first baby girl know I was the one she was depending on to keep her safe and take care of her. I didn’t know anything about babies.
    I had never heard of HELLP syndrome, but I am glad that you are better!

  2. 16th June 2016 / 6:14 pm

    Gosh it sounds horrid to go through but your strength pulled you through and I can only imagine the overwhelming feelings of leaving the hospital and coming home. Tea sounds like a great way to start! I love that you’re raising awareness, I’d never heard of HELLP #marvmondays

    • Double the Monkey Business
      16th June 2016 / 7:05 pm

      Thanks for commenting, I am glad that I am getting the message out there. Tea solves everything 🙂 It was probably one of the last times I had a cup of tea and drank it warm ha ha! x

  3. 16th June 2016 / 2:05 pm

    Well done you for raising awareness, I honestly hadn’t heard of the syndrome up until now. I’m so glad you’ve managed to recover and your two little dots are beautiful! Thanks for linking up to #MarvMondays xo

    • Double the Monkey Business
      16th June 2016 / 7:06 pm

      Thank you hun, I am very lucky to be here and be chasing the dots around, although they are massive now in comparison 🙂 x

  4. 14th June 2016 / 1:56 pm

    Oh, they are so irresistibly cute! I’m really happy you have recovered and can enjoy your little angels now. Keep raising awareness, I admire how brave you are. xxx #AnythingGoes

    • Double the Monkey Business
      16th June 2016 / 7:57 pm

      Thank you lovely lady! xxx

  5. 14th June 2016 / 10:13 am

    Oh my goodness, you poor thing! It’s great that you had no long term effects & two healthy, gorgeous boys but what a long & difficult recovery you had! It’s great that you are raising awareness of HELLP, I hadn’t heard of that before. #AnythingGoes x

    • Double the Monkey Business
      16th June 2016 / 7:59 pm

      Thank you, I am very very lucky! xxx

  6. 13th June 2016 / 10:00 pm

    I hadn’t heard about this condition at all before reading your series of posts and I have been moved and gripped by your story. I can only imagine how relieved you must have been to finally be home with your beautiful babies.

    Thanks for linking your story with #fartglitter x

    • Double the Monkey Business
      16th June 2016 / 8:14 pm

      Thank you, I am quite glad to be nearing the end of the story to be honest. I am glad to be here to try and raise awareness of everything. xxx

    • Double the Monkey Business
      16th June 2016 / 8:15 pm

      Thank you hun x

  7. Geraldine
    13th June 2016 / 9:43 pm

    I can only imagine the anxiety of going home with two little ones especially after the anxiety of HELLP. Putting the kettle on always feels like the solution to everything 🙂 interested to read your next post on your journey with HELLP #MarvMondays

    • Double the Monkey Business
      16th June 2016 / 8:15 pm

      Oh yes, putting the kettle on is always a good solution 🙂 x

  8. Geraldine
    13th June 2016 / 9:43 pm

    I can only imagine the anxiety of going home with two little ones especially after the anxiety of HELLP. Putting the kettle on always feels like the solution to everything 🙂 interested to read your next post on your journey with HELLP

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