The girl is leaving home. Just 17. Left school. With memories of sitting on the grass, listening to ‘Sittin on the Dock of the Bay’ fresh in her mind.
Wondering what the world has in store. She has only ever lived in this city. The girl doesn’t know anything different.
She has a place at University. In a city, not to far, that is bigger and altogether scarier.
Sitting on her childhood bed, she daydreams. What is next for this girl? Where is this new adventure going to take her? How will this girl cope? She has no experience of the world. Of course, right at that moment she doesn’t know she has no experience of the world. She knows it all, doesn’t she?
She starts to pack
Trying to figure out what on earth she needs to take, for survival on her own. No parents to guide her. It was harder than she could even imagine. Bit by bit she packs a few belongings.
The day comes when she sees her Dad pack the car. Her heart is in her mouth as she kisses her mum goodbye. Not just a mum, her best friend. She is leaving.
Her mum is being brave, holding back the tears as she sees her little girl, who still seems so young to her, start to make her way into the big bad world. She knows it has to be done. She is ignoring the words from her own father which rings through her: “You are making her too independent” he said, “I have to let her make her own way” she answers back.
Still, despite knowing this is a step her little girl needs to take, when the time comes it is harder than she expects. She waves goodbye. As the car turns the corner, she breaks down.
The girl is in the car, watching silently as buildings rush past in a blur.
Off to the big city she goes
They arrive all to soon. “I am not ready for this” she thinks. She says nothing to her Dad.
They park outside the halls of residence. Collect the keys. Unlock the door. A few other girls have arrived already. They say hello as they unload the car into her box room. She can see the bright lights of the big city outside her bedroom window. She feels a mix of excitement and nerves. Wonder and fear all rolled into one.
The time is here, she says goodbye to her Dad. She gulps the tears back. They hug and she watches him drive away. The tears come now, happy and sad. She is about to embark on one of the best years of her life. The girl is lucky. She is missed.
Her Dad drives away, sadness overwhelms him. His little girl, all grown up. What will her life be like? Who will she become? Will she be happy?
Time will tell.
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